Avoidance ~ Help me please?

For 1 stop saying your sorry about everything. You are who you are. Second I would seriously explore what it is that you think you are afraid of. All the things you do not only help others but they help you and will seriously pay off later in life. Facing what's inside your self can be scary, but if you don't know what it is then you really don't know your self. Which leaves a hole in your future. If you find out what it is later it could cost you, a marriage, a job, a life.